ok

the cool air, the quiet stillness outside, and the very emo sounds of 张震岳's 'ok' is making me very comfortable tonight. so comfortable i decided not to do any work.

'ok' is a surprisingly refreshing album, something i didn't expect from 张震岳. rappish-ballads, some about life in general, and which i can resonate with.

" 又一天的一个晴天
阳光印在这张旧沙发
躺下来闭上眼
恍然不知寂寞枕着蔓延
有时候想把自己关起来
还是学着把心门拉开"

-很难

" 当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生"

-思念是一种病

reminds me of a song he sang a very long time ago. a chinese song with a hokkien title - 无路用的人. i remember humming along to the song on long walks home at night, when i stayed at another part of the island, and feeling all ok despite a bad and long day. that's like 2 years ago already.

a nokia bus

i rushed onto an empty 151 the other day to go home, and was greeted with a refreshingly different interior. it was a bus advertising nokia, and the interior was somewhat made to look lush and lounge-ish - white leathery seats and all.

i headed straight for one of the three round seats more often found in the corner of a contemporary living room, and wondered who decided these spatially inefficient seats would be allowed in a public bus, usually pragmatically designed for maximum seating and standing capacity.

and then i was looking at the tv screen which replaced tv mobile (yeah!), which said i could switch on the blue-tooth on my hp to download the song playing in the bus. how cool is that! i risked looking stupid and flipped out my hp, and successfully downloaded a 20-sec clip for free.

by the time i had my fun, i had missed my stop. not that i minded. i think we can do with more nuggets of surprise and fun.

kudos to nokia for their marketing campaign. their outdoor movie thing, and the free concerts at esplanade too. if only their hps packed as much punch as the sony ericsson ones. oh, but the nokia prism. mmhmmm.

fireworks festival

there's always something captivating about fireworks. i think the ephemeral beauty of flowers blooming in the sky is almost unreal, and reminds of childlike fantasy. the fireworks display at marina bay wasn't exactly up to expectations. but beautiful nonetheless.

ky and ks came down despite short notice, and i'm thankful. we decided to have supper while the crowds wrestle their way to public transport. i had charsiew-rice at my favorite foodcourt, between silly talk and chuckles at nothing in particular.

by the time we left, the crowds had thinned considerably. music was still pumping from somewhere in esplanade, and pockets of people were still lazing in the open spaces wherever sitting is possible. i find comfort in seeing happy people gathered in groups doing nothing, i dunno why.

and so, everything feels much better.

school

school started barely yesterday, and it feels like it's been a week.

everything's pretty much still the same - i didn't even need to move my belongings (left untouched for half a year!) to another section of the studio, since the arrangement for year 4s is to stay put. as i had felt in third year, there is, sadly, less things to be excited about anymore. even that feeling, that of lament and boring familiarity, is well, familiar.

i need a thesis title by next week. too many things, too little thought. and i can't seem to stop a surging flood of uncertainty and panic.

hopefully i will gather the momentum and optimism to get things going soon, i have to. and start to enjoy my last year in school. i resolve to continue my proud habit of swimming every week - it makes things more wholesome and happy, as was 2 semesters ago. but not this week. i am still grasping for ideas in an ocean of raw inspiration. and choking with stress.