i just want to

tonight's weather is kinder than the past few nights'. i found a nice soundtrack to play in the background. perfect to do the thousand and one things i need to do.

but i feel so sleeeeeeppyyyy.

庆幸

昨晚跟几个当兵时候认识的朋友吃了饭。已经很久很久没有碰面了。有一两年了吧。

我们自从ord之后，就各自往自己的理想前进。昨晚五个男生，五种不同的生活领域。各自忙各自的，想安排见面的时候，总好像有人不在，所以一拖再拖。

昨晚时间过得好像很快。我们重新挖起了共同患难的回忆。向大家update了平凡的现在。也一起讨论了又美丽又茫然的未来。

这么久没见面，有人的头发已经长得不行。原来有人已经游遍香港和台湾了。有人已经换了两份工作。有人已经在计划结婚了。原来有人错过了我人生一段留着胡子的日子了。

大家都变了。

就是没有变陌生。

no internet

my home's modem decided to give way, at the most inappropriate of times. at a time when i need to transfer a lot of big files all the time. at a time when the good sister who has arrived at yellowstone and needs to skype home.

稀游记

i was just back from thank-you-dinner with the idiots, and decided to catch some tv before bathing. somehow managed to catch the rerun of 稀游记2, some ch8 show about singaporeans staying overseas. i think it's one of the rare mandarin shows with 质感. there's way more depth in it than most variety shows, and so much more watchable than the serious-social-phenomenon-and-politics-but-not-really ones. i like how it is set in exotic faraway places, talking about real pple in real relationships. i like belinda the host too. she doesn't speak the best mandarin, oh but seriously i think she's way under-rated.

the show is not variety, nor travel guide. neither comedy, nor melodrama. it's neither here, nor there. it's just ok. and that's what i like about it.

sometimes we envision our lives as either enriching, or empty. feelings as either happy, or sad. but like some lyrics i don't remember from which song, life is not like an advertisement. for most of the time, i'm probably dangling between yes and no, in a blur of vagueness and uncertainty. things are not exactly the best, but really life is ok.

just ok lor.

and i find some kind of weird beauty in that.